this is weird.. there's been a flurry of visitors to my blog these few days.. it's like.. i've only disclosed the identity of this blog to a few people.. and suddenly the whole world knows it.. but.. i guess we can't know the whole world without part of the world knowing us.. but yet.. i guess the thought of people, perhaps, wondering who the 'she' is in my entry, is disconcerting.. i guess.. it's best for me not to name much names then.. and.. weirdly.. nobody has commented on my posts.. yet.. and.. it's been like living secondary school again. where girls that i'm seen occasionally with, are matchmaked with.. yet.. the surroundings are different.. the gossip too i guess.. a flaw of society.. a weakness in men.. that feeling of self-consciousness.. and observational quietness.. ah.. the wonders and beauty of life.