hMm.. i talked to Her on msn a few nights ago and interesting questions came up. thought-provoking, her questions has been stuck in my mind for several days.
the taking, receiving and giving aspects of a relationship.
indeed, the night after we chatted about it, i pondered the questions. this being my first real relationship, i would naturally want it to last as long as possible. but i cannot plan too far ahead and i have to take it one day at a time. love cannot be planned nor foreseen.
the more i thought the more i confused myself. till i distangled myself from the confusion, took a step out and examined the situation from another point of view,. then i saw it. my mistake. taking what was not given. taking more than what i was receiving. in my pursuit, in the short dash, i tried to go faster than time. instead of going along with it, i tried to ran ahead of it. i didnt heed her warnings to slow down. and for this, i'm sorry dear.
Now, i see the importance of time in relationships and its crucial role.
To receive her love with humility and meekness and to give what she needs. a shoulder, a hand, a hug or a man. a ear, a tear,comfort is near. Yet what should i receive i wonder and i realise this fact. simply yet true. i love her. and i will receive whatever she gives. to let her give and i receive. and not to take what she is not ready to give.
Indeed, we have yet to know each other. the result of just two weeks of dating. to know, we have to open. yet, like she said:
"...opening up would mean leaving oneself vulnerable to hurt.and being hurt ain't never nice.always leaves a scar and i guess adds a new layer to how deep one burries oneself..."
Since i cannot foresee the future, i cannot promise not to hurt you, but i know that what i can give i can promise and thus i promise love. love that overcomes hurt.
