Do you?

A movie.
Purposed touches.
Feelings exchanged through touch.
Do you feel what I feel?

A walk.
Mutual murmuring.
Thoughts expressed through words.
Do you know what I know?

A parting.
Missed.
Emotions expressed through thoughts.
Do you?

Chain yourself up in shackles.

If you ever felt like chaining yourself up in shackles just so you can study, well perhaps now you can.


Study Ball Forces Study

Small, not big.

I bit myself during a day last week.
Not out of frustration or suffering but to simply distract the mind from the endurance.
It worked. To an extent, cause it brought back memories.
Bittersweet ones of being bitten.
Twice.
It was a casual friend that bit me, and while I have no idea if she remembers it, I know I do.
There will always be stuff that you've done, that nobody around deems it significant or noble or memorable but you know you will always remember it.
In fact, it's the small nitty gritty things you do that you remember and not so much of the big stuff. You will feel better with and at yourself doing small little deeds that seemingly sprout little rewards, than doing gigantic stuff, like saving the world or finding the formula for world peace or perfecting the solution to immunize against all strains of influenza.
These small deeds, no one really knows them. In fact, most would probably forget them till you bring it up. Or per chance, they remember for that brief moment, and mention it to you.
Then again, majority of these deeds would be them at their weakest points and most probably a defunct personality.
But the point I'm trying to bring across is that, you don't have to do huge deeds to feel happy or proud of yourself or glad. Many small cuts fells a tree. Small seeds grow to be big trees.
So if you ever despair, or feel discouraged, or think you're not really worth a lot, cause you didn't make it to the top of the class, or secure that very important contract, or win the competition, don't.
It's the small things you do. You just touch your heart, and reflect a little, and focus on these deeds, and the feeling of human kindness and warmth that radiates from your heart, let it flow through you and make you glad.

Wrap your light around you

Visualize a wad of chewing gum.
Now imagine it's emitting and radiating
a nice, warm and friendly light.
Now feel it.

There's this lamp called the iLamp (Why do all new products have an 'i' in front of them nowadays?) that can be bent into any shape you wish to, whether it be naughty or nice, and you can use it as a reading light.

Wouldn't mind using this as wallpaper, though my electricity bill would most probably be a rather hefty sum.

http://www.coolest-gadgets.com/20090507/ilamp-lighted-chewing-gum

The 4 Horsemen.

The Book of Revelation

and a new day.

A multitude of sweat
glistening and
raining down on the ground
mixed with several
sparkling drops of blood
that seemingly diffuses
through the stones.

Stepping on stones
that cut through open skin
what ever happened to the boots
or to the shirt so drenched in sweat.

Fatigues they call it,
and it is fatigue it induces on its wearer.
The waves of lalang that flows and ebbs
like the tide
except to conceal
a movement within
like seek and hide.

On damp ground they lie
shivering as the beads of sweat cools
and the fatigues get wet
like sleeping in the rain
only to wake up and find it is winter.
What ever happened to spring?

And so we trudge on
to a rendezvous we know not where
to a place that's 'somewhere there'
and a gesture in the general direction
under the dim flare of red.

The gentle and calming fragrance of jasmine
like a soothing massage
that brings temporal relief to
the body mind and soul.

The sun breaks out of the darkness
and a new day begins.
Fast by the hour
yet a crawl, by the minute.