I bit myself during a day last week.
Not out of frustration or suffering but to simply distract the mind from the endurance.
It worked. To an extent, cause it brought back memories.
Bittersweet ones of being bitten.
Twice.
It was a casual friend that bit me, and while I have no idea if she remembers it, I know I do.
There will always be stuff that you've done, that nobody around deems it significant or noble or memorable but you know you will always remember it.
In fact, it's the small nitty gritty things you do that you remember and not so much of the big stuff. You will feel better with and at yourself doing small little deeds that seemingly sprout little rewards, than doing gigantic stuff, like saving the world or finding the formula for world peace or perfecting the solution to immunize against all strains of influenza.
These small deeds, no one really knows them. In fact, most would probably forget them till you bring it up. Or per chance, they remember for that brief moment, and mention it to you.
Then again, majority of these deeds would be them at their weakest points and most probably a defunct personality.
But the point I'm trying to bring across is that, you don't have to do huge deeds to feel happy or proud of yourself or glad. Many small cuts fells a tree. Small seeds grow to be big trees.
So if you ever despair, or feel discouraged, or think you're not really worth a lot, cause you didn't make it to the top of the class, or secure that very important contract, or win the competition, don't.
It's the small things you do. You just touch your heart, and reflect a little, and focus on these deeds, and the feeling of human kindness and warmth that radiates from your heart, let it flow through you and make you glad.
